fiddle flutteries

I feel so unbalanced, and far away, not far up or way down, but far ... away. I don't have a landing, I don't seem to have a foothold, I just seem to float around.

It was interesting being in Singapore. I felt so purposed. But being back in China appears to blend my days into one jumbled, 'foggied', bubble-life. Its harder to feel like I have a purpose and plan here! I'm leaving in less than 2 months. I have such little time left. I miss feeling motivated and "called". Yet, as a believer, I should feel aspired everyday, I should start days with excitement! YES! I am supposed to live today! He has given me yet another chance to love, love Him, love His people! Isn't that purpose enough? Yes, it really should be! (Wait here while I get my Bible) Pslam 139- Beautifully writen, thirst-quenching Truth, Reviving to the Soul. I love you L-rd. Balance me again, set me straight! Even if it means that I don't "feel" You! You reveal yourself in SO many ways, show me a new way to experience you! You keep my life exciting, You make sure I LIVE, and really live to the fullest!

<3 you, My Lord, My Savior, My hero**