Be-LONG

Fresh page, new pen
Where do I begin
Words fail, tears come
I need someone
To take the thoughts I almost think
And carry them to God for me

Deep breath, exhale
Breathe in deeper still
Long sigh, I’m still numb
Is there anyone
Who can find the things I’m barely feeling
And give them wings beyond my ceiling?

Right heart, wrong place
It’s too far to outer space
Sorry, I forgot, You’re right here
I cup my hands around Your ear
I feel you smile, You feel my breath
You listen while I whisper non-sense

Simple exchange
Your will, I’m changed
And now my prayer ends
Thank You, Amen

Trying to reach You.

tried to fly but my wings were broken
Trying to reach You
I caught the train without a token
Trying to reach You
All that I long for is all that You give
All that I run to is there where You live
All I can handle is falling apart
When I feel so far
When I feel so far
I tried to fight but I'm my opponent
Dying to tell You
I stole the words that were unspoken
I'm lying to tell You
All that I long for is all that You give
All that I run to is there where You live
All I can handle is falling apart
When I feel so far
I feel so far away
Far away from You
All the while You were closing in
All that I'm missing You're giving
I'm dying to reach You

-Michelle Turnes, Far


Come rock my world again , my LOVE.

Oh robots that we are.

this is my robot font. I am going to be a robot! Hurray.
yes yes.
Oh rubbish.
The way we react will always be like this.
Only He can save me.
Yes, God, Only you can save me.
I love you and you are the love of my life. Goodnight, I will now slumber, sweet slumber.

Gosh i really should not look at pictures, it pretty much kills me.
Kyler sleeping here tonight. ;) Hurray. Nice! Hee, so that is interesting. Anyways, i wanted to call Dom, and I did, but he did not pick up.*(oh what a surprise) So i asked Kyler to use her number and prank call him, and he picked up IMMEADIATELY and stuff. Man, i don't know. geez, Im such a big loser! :) ha ha.

I choose the ugliest font EVER! ha ha.
well my lovelies, hopefully this WILL pass, But i doubt it will. Its Dom, it always will be dom and I am such a loser...

I love you guys! hee.:)

you and You, the both of y(Y)ou

are you pushing me away?
are You bringing me closer?
are you not in love with me anymore?
are You just bringing this along to help me leave it all behind?
are you moving on?
are You helping me move on, wanting me to move on?
I still love you.
I have always loved You.
y(Y)ou guys have me confused, totally and utterly confused.
Part of me wants to break free from you, most of me wants ever so badly to hang on.
I have always wanted to be near to You but you are so distant, is it me?What have I done?
Ah, oh ah, the night of the 21st, my 18th, will I ever remember it. Never will there ever be one like it again, ever again.
I am Yours forever, that will never change, so don't be jealous.
I want to be yours forever, but do you want to be mine?
I love You forever,
I want to love you forever.
Have you changed that much? I have always thought the best of you.. there is still good in you. ITS TRUE I SWEAR its true. But will you be able to take care of me?
DO yOU STILL LOVE ME? do you still love me.....? I don't know.
You know, You always have, do I have to let him go? I don't want you to say no.. I really don't.
How do (you) unlove someone? Undo years of caring from a distance. Only now to be near the person again and then throw it all away. I can't throw it away God, I just can't. I don't know how i can do this? I can't stop loving you you you you you you you you you.. God is there someone else? just for me?
what is to become of you then? you will find someone else won't you? I will have to live with that right? Yea.. I will. I want to stay Lord, forever here. Just here.
with you.
With You.
hey you, I will never forget that night. ever. I wanted that night to last just about for eternity.
I wanted that night to last forever Sherry, I really did, Oh God, I still love him. I don't know how to do this.
GET ME THROUGH GOD. I mean, please, I know You can.
Fly me out of this. Be my escape. my escape. escape.

I love you Dominic. tong. zhi, long. every bit of you.

oh Lord, i hate what i do to myself..

Oh be Near.

i am surfacing for just this one theiving moment, to steal your heart...
Give me this chance, oh please let me take away with me a piece, enough for just today.
I long to be near again.